In grade 3 people used to bully me and call me donkey because apparently I looked like one and I would always reply with “Donkeys are cute therefore i’m cute!” And one day this kid was like, ” No donkeys are ugly creatures that poor people use for transportation” and I replied with “AT LEAST PEOPLE LIKE TO RIDE ME!” And my teacher started laughing and I didn’t know why until today because I just realized what I said omg
The past year and a half of my life has been quite the challenge to say the least. I’ve had the unfortunate displeasure of being acquainted with the loss of a loved one due to suicide, which then in turn introduced me to grief, chronic depression, panic disorder, sleepless nights, anguish, and many, many tears. On top of all the emotional trauma I suffered, my physicality did not fair much better; the anguish, stress, and guilt I felt caused me to rupture an ovarian cyst in November of 2012, and I almost died due to internal bleeding in my lower abdomen.
But yet, here I am. It’s been a year, five months, and four days since Kaycie killed herself, and I can finally say that I am happy again. I could not be here without all my wonderfully supportive, amazingly caring friends; without them, I have no idea where I would be today. Who knows if I’d even be alive right now?
I also owe a lot of credit to my girlfriend; even though we have only been together 2 months and only known each other for 3, she has done so much in helping me regain confidence in myself and making me experience joy again. In fact, it’s only been within the past month and a half that my depression symptoms have been fading out of my life. She sticks with me through my ups and downs, and that means the world to me.
It’s been a long, hard year and a half, but I sense that this is the beginning of the end of my anguish, and I am so proud to say that I have made it through the darkest time of my life so far. I stand today more mature, cautious, and appreciative of all that’s around me, and I am so proud to say that I made it to today.
I’m comin’ out of my cage and I’ve been doing just fine